Mase untuk jadi independent

Jam dah pukul 4.10 pagi...tapi macam biase la...aku ni mane reti nak tido lagi ni
hahahahah.....esok dah la ade kelas en imran ni.......mampos...lambat lagila aku g kelas dia.
Hmmmmmmmmmmmm...tapi aku x kisah...yang paling penting skang ni huh~
adelah untuk melupakan perasaan ini.......hmmm susahnya Ya Allah.........
susahkan bile kite dah mula suke seseorang tu...........it takes years to forget them..Its really hard!!!..dammit!!
sometimes i just wish that i dont have any feelings to likes any men....because i know..finally my heart will broke again......sudahla.penatla rase ni......x mampu dah nak pikir.nanti aku macam setengah gile je...mmg gile la....sakit hati, sakit kepala, sakit jiwa.......semua x kena la....semua rse macam shittttt!!
life will be not meaningful anymore ......
yang paling aku x suke sekali bile aku dah x mampu nak ketawa mcm dulu
aku dah x sebahagia dulu dah....kalau perasaan ni ade ...its really effects my life!!!!!!..so shittt la..hate it!

Tapi penipu la....aku akan hidup independent forever..(yes i really wish i could be that)....tapi aku manusia biasa je...perasaan mmg mengatasi segalanya.....rase macm sesak dada je skang ni.........how to get rid of this feeling??
Someone..please help me............i really desperate to forget the things that been around in my head right now...
hmmmmmmmmmmmm.......hmmmmmmmmmmmm.pening kepala *seyes x tipu punya*~

takpe tijah..tabah....you go girl!!!
be strong..dont let  anything put u down
banyak lagi bende lain aku boleh buat selain daripada ingat bende yang x berguna ni...
tolong la tijah.please be wise.....the world is so big...there is many of place you can go to make you feel happy ,there is so many thing is can do to forget this 'shit' things

i love my life..
if i cant show you the sacred love that i can give
its ok then.....ive got my other  life
i got my family to be loved
i got my friend to be laughed with.......
its ok....i can be strong
because i know myself
eventhough....my heart is broke into pieces......
its ok.....i can still 'pick' it up again..even that times my eyes is filled with tears
even that times i feel so hurt.....i can be strong...
its ok..theres nothing wrong with you....
its is my wrong because liking you......and its my fault because i feel something special about you
it is WRONG to fall in love with you...it just wrong!!

i will be STRONG!!
Jangan sedih lagi tijah.....never ever~